Heidi and her boys
We have been trying to wrap our minds around how it is possible for two sisters to both have late stage Lyme disease. I have lived in Canada for 14 years and assumed I contracted Lyme here. Both Canada and Australia downplay the prevalence of Lyme in their countries. If Heidi does indeed have Lyme, this will mean that we most likely contracted it as children, as we obviously both lived in the same area back then, and have memories of removing ticks from our bodies. Lyme is able to lie dormant in our bodies for years at a time, causing non-specific symptoms that we tend to ignore, until a compromise to our immune system causes it to emerge and take over in full force. A strong immune system is able to hold Lyme back so that those of us infected are able to be symptom free for many years. It is well possible that this is what has happened with Heidi and I.
Because I was not aware of the Lyme infection within my body when I had children, it is quite possible that I have passed the infection on to my children (this will also be the same for Heidi). We will have to monitor our children closely for symptoms and treat them as soon as possible, should they arise. For now, our children appear healthy and strong, and keeping their immune systems strong is their best defense.
I would like to share with you a psalm that was very dear to me during the years when I was very sick. It seems to put a voice to the inner struggles that we experience during times of intense trial, during the sleepless nights that we battle through, and directs our gaze upwards for hope and comfort:
Psalm 77
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I cry out to God; yes, I shout.
Oh, that God would listen to me!
When I was in deep trouble,
I searched for the Lord.
All night long I prayed, with hands lifted toward heaven,
but my soul was not comforted.
I think of God, and I moan,
overwhelmed with longing for his help. Interlude
You don’t let me sleep.
I am too distressed even to pray!
I think of the good old days,
long since ended,
when my nights were filled with joyful songs.
I search my soul and ponder the difference now.
Has the Lord rejected me forever?
Will he never again be kind to me?
Is his unfailing love gone forever?
Have his promises permanently failed?
Has God forgotten to be gracious?
Has he slammed the door on his compassion? Interlude
And I said, “This is my fate;
the Most High has turned his hand against me.”
But then I recall all you have done, O Lord;
I remember your wonderful deeds of long ago.
They are constantly in my thoughts.
I cannot stop thinking about your mighty works.
O God, your ways are holy.
Is there any god as mighty as you?
You are the God of great wonders!
You demonstrate your awesome power among the nations.
By your strong arm, you redeemed your people,
the descendants of Jacob and Joseph. Interlude
When the Red Sea saw you, O God,
its waters looked and trembled!
The sea quaked to its very depths.
The clouds poured down rain;
the thunder rumbled in the sky.
Your arrows of lightning flashed.
Your thunder roared from the whirlwind;
the lightning lit up the world!
The earth trembled and shook.
Your road led through the sea,
your pathway through the mighty waters—
a pathway no one knew was there!
You led your people along that road like a flock of sheep,
with Moses and Aaron as their shepherds.