Playing Totem Tennis with my niece
My legs are always crossed in some way when I sit or lay down. Not sure why that is....
LYING DOWN: My favourite! Lying down was the most comfortable position for me - I would crash on the floor when fatigue came on suddenly.
The couch has been well-worn during these past few years.....
In the last year before diagnosis I developed severe weakness and pain in my MCP (thumb) joints. I wore braces to give me functional stability but was unable to play my guitar anymore. It was too difficult and painful to push down on the neck of the guitar - my thumb collapsed around it and I didn't have strength to hold down the strings. That was devastating for me. It felt like God was taking away one last pleasure that I still enjoyed.... This too was His will, so I put away my guitar and tried to enjoyed music in other ways.
I wrestled with what God was doing in my life. I could relate to Job and how he felt during his sufferings. I had so many questions that didn't seem to have answers. The book of Job was so helpful in putting it all into eternal perspective. How could I demand answers of a sovereign, all knowing, all caring, powerful Creator God?
"Oh, the depths of the riches of the wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable His judgements and His paths beyond tracing out!" Rom 11:33
I had many unanswered questions, fears and stresses but determined to rest in His providential and Fatherly guidance.